Fujifilm X100F 23mm 1/180 sec f/2.8 ISO 200


I'm pushing myself this year. Leaning into photography heavily. I get the same high from photographing that I do from being a birth worker, I'd just forgotten the rush, it had been so long. Now, though, seeing what I'm creating for others I'm inspired to create for myself.


Taking classes like Stormy Solis' All Heart Access and following it up with Illuminate - The Magician's Cape is pushing me. No where have I been more inspired than just being home. It felt overwhelming in the beginning to just get out my camera and take photos of you, Evan, and us as a family. All together. Me included. And the feelings! How do I separate art from self criticism?


I don't know how I anticipated being defined in front of the lens. I've focused on composition and light and being aware of getting into the shot but looking at the person I'm seeing in the image is, well, I don't have the words right now. I've always defined myself as the one behind, sharing my emotions through the image. This is a whole new ball of wax. 


The Who in this picture is weirdly someone I'm just getting to know. At Burning Man in 2014 they had an art installation where you looked at a mirror but instead of the mirror showing you your flipped self, it was able to show you the way others got to look at you. It was a profound experience for some, I unfortunately didn't find that the most profound but I've always wanted to experience something like this. And it occurs to me that this experiment is that. 


I'm seeing myself in my story, both as the mother and the photographer. I'm fascinated, curious, and a little terrified. 


K Hammock Photography Family Photographer Triangle Area Durham NC
K Hammock Photography Family Photographer Triangle Area Durham NC
K Hammock Photography Family Photographer Triangle Area Durham NC
K Hammock Photography Family Photographer Triangle Area Durham NC