Fujifilm x100f 23mm f/2.0 1/5 sec ISO 400


I just don't want to get up. I don't want to be the one to chase after a toddler first thing in the morning. 


We had five years of infertility to get this one kiddo. During which I was (and still am) working full time as a high risk L&D nurse. That time almost broke me. 


Then, after five failed IVF attempts, thankfully, we had a lovely boring pregnancy. But then Covid. And then not as much help with a newborn as we had hoped, not enough lactation support. A poorly growing newborn (just barely not Failure to Thrive) and me with not enough milk supply. I felt like my body was failing me again. With all the sleeplessness I was losing my mind. Triple feeding the entirety of my maternity leave. I was just over it. 


He stopped nursing at 8 months.


My photography business blossomed. I was excited but so so so so so overworked. I put my foot down, finally, and told my husband he needed to be the person solely responsible for the bedtimes and the wake-ups. And it saved me.


And most of the time that is our balance and our routine. But my husband broke his arm on Black Friday last year, so things have been topsy-turvy. And I get so cranky in the mornings when I have to pick up that extra weight.


I want to just grab my baby and get him to settle down and snuggle for five more (an hour more) minutes. I want to sleep in. I want to not have to think about keeping a little one alive for a little longer. But a marriage is a work of art together, so sometimes I have to pick up the extra weight. Even though it feels unbearably heavy.

K Hammock Photography Family Photographer Triangle Area Durham NC
K Hammock Photography Family Photographer Triangle Area Durham NC
K Hammock Photography Family Photographer Triangle Area Durham NC